Optimism
Posted: Fri Nov 09, 2007 7:30 pm
The weekend before the Halloween party
She was dressed up much brighter than usual. She'd even attempted to style her hair for this. "Attempted" being the right word, but at least it wasn't frizzed or sporting ice flakes. Makeup... that she hadn't even tried; stores didn't really carry colors that would look realistic on Joni's skin.
he'll think you're ugly regardless. he's not interested in you.
She shushed that nagging voice. He'd invited her to the aquarium, hadn't he? That had to mean something.
means nothing at all. this was a mistake and you know it. he doesn't love you and you will be humiliated and...
Joni checked her watch impatiently. He was only a few minutes late...
he won't show at all.
"Hey Joni! Sorry I'm late."
A tiny, nervous smile crossed her face at this small victory. She waved back at the approaching student.
The voice hesitated for only a moment before laying into Joni again. ...this still means nothing. he's not interested; he's just too nice to break your heart just yet. you're deluding yourself.
She knew that. She'd known that for months. But was it so wrong to keep deluding herself, just for one afternoon?
"It's okay... Just glad you came, Bryan..." She was.
She was dressed up much brighter than usual. She'd even attempted to style her hair for this. "Attempted" being the right word, but at least it wasn't frizzed or sporting ice flakes. Makeup... that she hadn't even tried; stores didn't really carry colors that would look realistic on Joni's skin.
he'll think you're ugly regardless. he's not interested in you.
She shushed that nagging voice. He'd invited her to the aquarium, hadn't he? That had to mean something.
means nothing at all. this was a mistake and you know it. he doesn't love you and you will be humiliated and...
Joni checked her watch impatiently. He was only a few minutes late...
he won't show at all.
"Hey Joni! Sorry I'm late."
A tiny, nervous smile crossed her face at this small victory. She waved back at the approaching student.
The voice hesitated for only a moment before laying into Joni again. ...this still means nothing. he's not interested; he's just too nice to break your heart just yet. you're deluding yourself.
She knew that. She'd known that for months. But was it so wrong to keep deluding herself, just for one afternoon?
"It's okay... Just glad you came, Bryan..." She was.