Eshva's Journal

[Eshva]

June 16

My English teacher recomend that I get some writing pratice in. so I went out and bought a journal. I guess for now I'll write about my goings ons and such.

I've only been with SJS for a few days now. So far both days have been packed things to tell about! As I meet other students and go on partols or even just hang out I learn more and more about everyone. I guess I'll start with whats been bugging me the most.

2 days ago after a long day of partoling I went to Pocket D to go study. Climbing up in to a little ledge in the Cleining I open my book and started to read. I took a break and looked about and I spotted an SJS uniform. Excited that I may have found some new people to meet I leaped down to rush over and greet them.

As I was running up the stairs I soon discover the two girls ( later I found out they are Sapphire and Kris) seem to be arguing.. I stopped in my tracks as I had cleary just inturpted something personal. The two of them turned to look at me. One pain strickin the other annoyed and cold. Feeling really shy and embrassed I meekly waved introduced myself and stated I was new to the school... Sapphire quickly stated "take care of her" Kris came over intruduced her self. Feeling more awarkard every second I appolized for interputing and ran back down. Stopped by the sudden urge to look at the Canvarl Dancer.....who was wearing odd clothing.. I am snapped out of it by the words of a voice I just talked to over the comm stating " eshva there is a vampire stalking you " I felt like I gotten even paler then I already was! noise over the the comm went nuts with the voices of students. "eshva were are you" "on my way" "Vampire!! why that little..." I checked over my shoulder sure enough there he was red energy swirling arround him like and electrical feild wearing a selvless leather jacket. He looked like a normal super from the distance. It then dawned on me I should probally move..I jumped back up on to the ledge I was just on. Vampires!! I didn't even think they were real! To boot, I didn't even notice him there... Wait.. Did he? I scaned my body and neck quickly to see if he had biten or done anything to me. That was the last thing I wanted.. to be a Real demon! After I had finished my Check Sapphire was saying somthing to the vampire Kris stood back aways.. Soon other students were showing up. Faster, Glacial, Mis, Jassime, and other Came runing in. The Moment I saw Glacial ( Been hangin out with him a fair bit so I reconized him) I jumped down from my ledge and ran over behind him. Shouts were displaced. Fists were ready. Sahhpire stoped the barwl no one touched the vampire. A Chill had fallen over me like I've never felt before.. I was scared, I was shaking! I don't remeber anything much that was said durring then. I just remeber a "lets get Eshva out of here" and I followed all the way back to the school. Glacial stayed with me and made sure I was alright.

It was the next day that I found out that Vampire have been bothering students for a while now. I was very currious about what had happened so there was a bunch of questions going off in my head and out my mouth. It made me nervous that I felt such a chill. The Dance thats going on today (heh more on this later) Is at Pocket D. I am still worried that I'm going to bump into another vampire there.. I've earsed most of my fear with the large number of students attending.. Hopefully everything goes well tonight ^^ I have my first store bought outfit (asides the school one) and a Date with Ink tonight ^^ I'm really excited about it. So far everyone likes my out fit. So with that I leave this fairly gloom entry with excitement. hehe I'll write later about the details of my frist date ^^ Squee!!

[Eshva]

June 18

I can't get the dance outta my head I had such a wonderful time ^^ I figured before I forget everything that happend I should probally write it down.

I had the joy of actually buying my first outfit ^^ instead of making it.. I'd gathered enough cash off of bad guys from doing school partols to do so. Glacial Recmonded some guy in Icon so I went there. They were even able to get a material that Ink wouldn't well Ink up. I liked it. I'll have to go back there more often ^^

Anyways day of the dance I headed down to pocket D with out a worry. I get there and a few people were already there, And all of them looking very sharp. I was very impressed with Pu's dress, She looked great! Stasis also looked great, she waited for her date to show off her dress. Lucky hers did show up. I'd checked the entrace way for Ink to show up.. I'd been dancing with Rin and hedge a couple times that night while waiting. I was still depressed that my frist date ever stood me up. Just then I had looked up and there he was sitting on the ledge of the dj booth looking a bit down himself. He looked great in his suit white blazer and all I wondered if thats why some people called him a celbrity. Wondering if it was going to be weird askin another guy to be my date.. I mustered up and walked over to him. The words fell outta my mouth before I realized it and I had another date ^^. I'm surpised I didn't blush while askin! I must be getting better at it. Dj Zero encougared us to get down on that dance floor and tear it up. We did. As we left Pocket D to head off he had gotten a smile on his face as we got on the train.

We got off at Steel canyon, I hadn't a clue what was going on when he told me to wait. I heard a funny noise... and suddenly I was looking over Steel Canyon. I'd climbed many of the buildings of steel before but none of them had a view like this. I fashioned a seat beside him. We exchanged storys and enjoyed the view. I really didn't want to head back to the dorms, I would have been happy in his arms. It was getting late, he offered to take me back. I don't think I even passed a second tought when I jumped off the ledge I might have made him worried but the Fall was worth it. Windows ziping by, the breeze of the wind lifting my hair and whooshing by my ears. Fallin into the view I'd been admiring all night just suited how I was feeling. Landing on my feet I stood up and looked at him. I took the hand that was extended and we walked back to the school Even that was blissful. I ran out of things to say as we approched my room. I recieved a kiss on the cheek. I know I blushed the grin on his face said it. I even reached up and touched the spot. I never thought I would get a kiss! We exchanged our good nights and I lied down on my bed. I must have stayed awake for a while thinkin about the events. I know I went to sleep with a smile on my face.

[Eshva]

June 19

I'm worried... I hadn't seen or heard from Rin since the dance.. until yesterday... he spoke on the comm and sounded odd.. not only that he spoke using we. He spoke in a matter were I could hear the Rin's voice but this other voice at the same time.. The dual voice asked me if I was Eshva.. I confrimed and the dual voice of Rin simply said "ah he is fond of you... " I wanted to see him. See what was wrong help if I can.. Something has happend to him and I don't know what. I pressed for his location. Atlas park was the destination I needed to go to. I ran. I ran faster then I've ever ran before. I looked all over for Rin and in the end I couldn't find him. What happened after that night? We shared a wonderful night.. After Failing to find Rin I jumped up on the buildings of Altas park in hopes of spoting him.. I gave up.. Headed down to steel cannon

There I heard on the comm a Refet... I may have spelled the name wrong.. Bumped into me at Icon. There I helped him save the fortune teller ^^ we asked on the comm so see if anyone else wanted to help Terra came allong. I always enjoy teaming with other students it opens up the chance for me to get to to know them better. After the fortune teller was saved I headed to Striga island. There I met some new contacts and had a nasty run in with the Werewolves.. I managed to call out for help just before one of them threw a rock at my head...and I was in the water.. From there.. I heard the crack of the over sized rock hitting my head.. the sound of the water splash.. It went black... I guess it wasn't that much longer Before GM came by and I woke up sputtering and his grin behind a sheet of ice that covered him. He'd gotten me out of the water. We got the Werewolves back much to my enjoyment.

I rested a bit and tried to do some studying.. I was having a hard time focusing So I went exploring. Finding my self in Croatoa.. Were I met a Drow... Who went by the Name Kearen Darkwood. It was neat cuz I had read about them in some of the books I picked up while onthe streets. Very charmin fellow. And I bumped into stormy Daye again ^^ Its a great. Together we beat Ghosts, pumpkin people known as Fir Blog... The drow picked up Cutie to be my nick name. Before he departed he gave me gifts whispered something in a odd launguage in my ear and kissed my cheek.. Ya I blushed again... and he left. Another intersting day. its makin me wonder what today will bring. I've picked up writing in the moring ^^ I'm always too bushed to write at night.

[Eshva]

June 20

I've decided that there really never is a dull day at SJS.

Yesterday I finally got to meet up with Rin. This time its was excitement to hear my voice and not questioning. I tried to ask what had happened yesterday.. He said he was nappin and never set foot in Atlas park.... Thinking that was just a little weird.. I shook it off. He seemed okay thats what mattered. I invited him out to pizza at Croatoa. Shortly afterwards he was there Standing before me in a T shirt and pants. It didn't take me long to notice the Bright green markin on his face it swirled about on his left part of his face. I asked him what it was.. he didn't have a clue. In fact he claimed not seeing it until just then. He looked down.

" I also woke up with this." He still spoke in the dual voice. From his back he pulled a Beatuiful sword. Down the center of it It looked like runic etchings. I suggested that he put it on display. I admired the blade for a bit. He put the blade away. And we headed to pizza. There the pizza owner Pleaded with us to to the to were house and get the ghosts there. We agreed. When we get there there were Cabal...Confussed he carried on Defeating cabal Til we finally saw our first ghost. The spirit thanked us and ran off. We both argeed the Pizza owner used ghosts to deviler his pizza. Almost at the same time we exclaimed " hey fast devilery! " The rest of the mission was full of smiles and laughs. Well at least til the end of the mission.. We were bombarded by Cabal. My claws Flew threw the air and out to the side I spoted Rin using the sword. I'd never seen such sword play in my live! he looked like he held that blade for most of his life. Almost memorized by the movements of the gleming blade a Cabal managed to pull off a punch to my face. Rin Called out "we should get out of here. we got all the ghosts" So we ran we barely made it out.

I know I had a grin on my face. I just remebered a cool spot I discovered that I could show him. I got him to follow me and I ran, not stopping mainly cuz of the Tuatha in the area, to a Small lake or pond. I waited a few seconds for them to appear. The White glowing orbs flew up out of the water started to fly about above the water. He stoped beside me looked in awe and sat down. I took a seat beside him on the grass We talked some. We returned to the subject of the mark on his face and the mysterious sword.. he Still couldn't remeber. I told him maybe he'll remeber someday. He looked at me, and relpied "Maybe, but for now I'll just enjoy the moment." He put his arms arround me then. Just Like on the building. I snuggled in again and we were quiet. Well mostly asides the tickle war going on threw the comm.

Glacial came on. I was the frist to say hi, then Rin followed... in old Rin voice... Shocked I looked up and Glacial commented over the Comm about it. I thought nothing bad could become of this. I was wrong. So very wrong. Seconds after Rin realized that he was talking normal he looked like he was in massive pain. Words stammered out of his mouth returning to the dual tone it carried. All his powers set off. The bubble, the Earth below us shook, A Gas even came from the ground. I jumped up and covered my mouth in case it would harm me. The last words I heard were "Eshva...help " he ran off. In to the woods he bolted at amazing speed. I gave chase Following him best I could. I almost lost him too. But he returned to the lake.. he had changed apperance. Mostly clothing but a Strange Green glow was coming off his head. I just knew it was still him. I came up behind him and hugged him. Pleaded with me to tell me whats wrong. I didn't know what to do. I called on Help over the comm He stammered Azuria.. See Azuria with that he Vanished. I had know Idea who that was. Some of the Students on comm heard me think alloud. "Azuria works for MAGI in Atlas park." Thats all I need I bolted to the Train. Shortly after I was waiting in City hall waiting in the waiting area to see Azuria. When I heard Rin on the comm again. It almost sounded mockin...

"Enjoyed your Time in Croatoa Eshva?" The Dual voice said. Tears came to my eyes. I relplied "yes..."

" Too bad we didn't make it to the mystic." Rin Mocked. I'm Starting to feel like this isn't Rin.. Rin isn't this cruel.

"I'm with her now.. would you come join me?" He humed in return. "please?" click his comm was turned off.

I told Azuria as much as I could. The sword, the marking on his face. She looked at me confussed.. She handed me a bunch of books to look threw. She told me that she didn't have the time right now. I seem decated enough to help that I might find something usefull in these. I took the books to my New dorm quad 3. It was empty. Mimi wasn't there as normal. She had lots of stuff on her side. My side bare. I sat on my bed scaning one of the heavy books for anything. Hours later I got bored and decided to give it a rest for now And head out.

I invited Glacial to go Puppy hunting again. We did It was great fun. Kearen, my drow friend showed up again too. He grined as I told him how the mission went after he left me. I guess he put some Drow blessing on me. He is such a gentleman. We did a bunch of missions together. Glacial had to go and later on Pu joined us ^^. Evenually he departed for some buiness at pocket D. He literally vanished. I stayed up a bit and wandered the island a bit before I headed to bed.

[Eshva]

June 22

The past two days have kept me soo busy! This is gonna be a long entry! most of the details have been kinda forgotten so I'll start with what I remeber which was today. I'll probally end up fillin in what triggers memories of yesterday too.

When I woked up Mimi was still sleeping. which was a little odd seeing how most of the time she's gone and in class. she must have had a late night.. So I quitely got my partol uniform on and exited out.

I'd just finished setting up my comm when I reconized the two voices of Stormy and Thunder cricket. They were in Croatoa doing some partoling. Seeing that I was on my way there anyways I didn't have a problem going and giving them a hand. When I arrived Cricket asked me a question that caught me off gaurd.

"Hows your Boyfriend? Is he feeling better?"

Boyfriend? I wasn't aware I had on. I questioned back Boyfriend? Cricket then made a refferance to Rin. I felt my face get warm and reminded me that I have to stay away from him.. He asked me to. He didn't want me to get hurt. Even though it hurts just not bealbe to help him. "Nobody should have to be alone" and "I'm here for you" were the messages I pushed on Rin our last chat.. Which was over the comm.. I guess I have been fussing over him alot lately.. maybe just cuz I've seen what he is suffering from...

The events leading up to the badge hunting are kinda burrly..but hanging out with Kali, Obs, Lightfall and KK Was a blast the day got even better when I got a message on my comm from Rin. To my surpise he sound nornal! I was excited and questions flew threw my head. I invited him to the team Comm. From there I was really shy from the bombardment of Comments that I later found out was called teasing.. I've never been teased before in my life. It was an odd feeling.. I know I was flushed in the face, embrased but at the same time I was smiling. Anyways lightfall decided that she'd help us find out some history about the city by teleporting us to locations in the city that had history plaques. There we meet up with Rin. Obs spoted the changes on Rin's face.. the Green mark. Questions flew at Rins dirrection. I also got to see what was glowing on him. His eyes glew a bright green, simlar in coloring to the mark on his face. Rin never answered any of Obs questions.. I knew some of the answers to them but I felt that it was Rin's place to tell the story when he was ready. I had arranged a meet with Rin later to hear what he had found out after.

Shortly The group headed off to Croatoa.. to go off and kill off a few Fir Blog and Tuatha. Since I was already there I had no real disire to go. So I poked at Rin... I think its time you told me.. He nodded in agreement. We went to Founders falls and found a grassy place to sit. He leaned against a tree crossing his arms. I sat on the grass across from him. There he told me the story. He remebered all of it. Everything he had done. From the night of the dance to yesterday for the wild display at the school. He even appolgized for the things "He" Said. "he" only took control of Rin when he was sleeping at frist, then when he was emontional.. From there it was when he was wide awake. What he'd done after the event at the school.. I actually could relate to.. It took me back to that night and the many years after I grown my claws... Which I think I may record here tonight. "He" was stoped by his Aunt, Miss libertary... and even Statesman.. I've decided I owe them all a big hug ^^. At the end of the tale I got up. I was just thankful that he was just in front of me. He looked worn and tired just by telling me. I got up and he opened his arms up. I walked into them for a hug. I don't know what it is but being with him alway made me feel happy. Like I'm not alone. We are different but we can relate to each other. I told him that the offer still stands, I'll still be there for you. I saw a smile cross his face.

"I guess niether of us have to be alone anymore huh?" Those words just lit me up. I noded my head in argeement. He kissed me then.. my first kiss. When the kiss was over we stayed in each others arms watching the sun set. I smiled.. Maybe he is my boyfriend ^^.

[Eshva]

June 25

Well this weekend was intersting...

Friday I recieved a Note on my door telling me that Kearen is looking for me. It had been a couple days since I've seen him last espically after that night he dispeared to Pocket D to take care of some buiness. Hopefuly I can find out who dropped it off so I can arrange a met with him.

Saturday was very slow. I spent most of it studing seeing how I've spent just a little to much time out on the streets partoling. When I got out Glacial told me to meet him at pocket D. There I found a large group of people. KK, Obs, Eric, Kali and Rin were their with Glacial. I didn't get much time to say hi to Rin before Glacial tugged me aside.

I was shocked at what he told me. Some ten year old girl was claiming to be my sister?? Very ill mannered at that from what Glacial told me. The girl even knew my real name.. Rose.. I haven't told anyone that name not yet anyways. I wrote it on a form for the school but thats it. I guess the little girl looked nothing like me... but she was wearing a mask... And maybe radiation powers. He warned me that it might be someone trying to get at me. She'd been watching me and thats how she knew that Glacial was close to me. I wondered if she wanted to meet me. I couldn't think of any other reason really. Again.. I'll have to sit and wait to see if I'm approched on my own. I'd like to meet her.. I've never had a sister before..

Anyways I forgot to write about my early Christmas!! I really do forget how it started but its a secret! Calypso got started talking about Christmas on the public comm. Tolliver and my self were on. Tolliver had never had a christmas! I haven't had one in 8 years.. So Calypso Decided that she was gonna have a early one for us! Meal and all. We also agreed on a gift exchange. I really haven't met either of them... so I guess that would be a good place to start. Tolliver was really worried about this getting out so thats why its a secert. Also He seemed a little worried about how he treats people. and thats he's not exactly the nicest of people. the Niceness has to start somewhere! Was my reply. I think I may know what I'm getting him already but I guess when I meet him I'll be able to confrim. Hopefully we'll do it soon this could be lots of fun!!

<< OOC!! Alrighty So This is were I let you guys in ^^ If you have any notes that your Character wants to write Eshva in school post em here. Weither they be notes about class or getting together to hang out . Please pick a date to post with the note. Eshva is kinda a pack rat and her journal is basically a record of the things she does day to day. Any notes she gets would be taped in to her journal ^^ >>

[Eshva]

June 26

Today I did get to meet up with Kearen. He asked me to do him a favor and give this little green orb to Nissa. It's a very pretty orb. Though I'm not suppose to say its from him, but from an old friend. So hopefully I'll be able to give her the orb soon ^^

I also got to go Lusca hunting today. It was quite the feat!! I saved some meat for Annie, I know how much she loves Lusca meat so hopefully that will really cheer her up ^^. We only had to teams to take her down. << I'll post pics later>> But we did it ^^

I spent most of my time on a Task Force for Sister Psyche... I also gave her the hug for help Rin. She laughed. Durring the task force one of the guys there.. Well I don't remeber his name but he kept poking me. For what reason I really don't know... but I asked him to stop a number of times. So I lost my temper and slaped him. The next words out of his mouth were " Will you marry me?" As he got down on one knee...I was so wierded out I must have jumped on to the nearest building. Who would want to marry a complete stranger!! Never mind that a Complete stranger that just slaped them!! Even after I told him I had a boyfriend..he asked me again and offered to be somthing on the side. I avoided him the rest of the TF if I could... Durring breaks between the TF I chatting over the comm leting people know what I was up to and such and told them about the creepy guy. KK Joked I should have told him I would only if he ran to the hills and stayed there for 25 years..Mind you then he though that it would be really creepy if I got a mysterious tell 25 years from then... I figured No would be a good answer. Evenutally the TF fell down to two people. We tried and tried but we weren't going to finish it. So we both called it a night and went to bed. Works for me. I was very annoyed though. I don't like starting things I can't finish.

[Eshva]

June 27

I managed to attempt to finish the Task force this morining by my self. I managed. Get to the final stages of finding out that Clamor was behind all of the terror. I approched her and quickly discovered I was in over my head. I had to retreat... I would have to get help.

While I waited for some back up I studied the orb that Kearen had givin me. It was very pretty with what looked like green clouds moving on the inside. I guess I spoke out loud. And Cricket asked me some more questions that struck me as odd. Are you sure its safe? Kearen has other friends, villian friends. I really didn't believe it... but enough I though I should tell nissa who it is from...

I got word that help was on the way and I managed to finish the taskforce with the aid of Obs, Lightfall, Pu and others not from the school We defeated Clamor. I was so excited that we celbrated with milkshakes ^^ Hegde and Null were busy in Croatoa to join us.


Later I decided to Join them. I bought them both milkshakes. Hegde apparently likes a peanutbutter milkshakes. I didn't know there was such a flavor. Null got a Vanilla one He seemed very happy with it. I rather enjoyed partoling with Null and Hegde. Being my frist time with Null I found him to be an awful lot like Duckie off of the movie "land before Time" The yup yup yup was the biggest simialarity.

After Null and Hegde left for bed I soon recieved a message from Kearen. He asked if I had given the Orb to Nissa yet. I hadn't found the time to do so as of yet. He pushed that it was very important. I tried to ask him what it was again. A decoration with a surpise in it was all he told me. Kearen also then asked if he could meet up with me.

Once he found me in Croatoa he asked me a odd question, he asked me about what a family is.. I told him what I thought it ment. Mother father and sibles that love each other.. He asked me about my family. I don't know why but I told him about what I had gone threw. My parents kicking me out. It struck a button.. a little more then normal.. I got emontional and I guess it crept out. Kearen comforted me and even introduced me to a friend. Dewshine.

She looked like a good verson of the Cabal dressed in white instead of black. She was one of the best students they had at the school they were both attending. She dismissed the flatterly and left to change her magic robes.

Shortly after I told him about my expirances with the SJS. Including my encounter with the vampire in Pocket D a while back. He pressed for information on his appearance. He was even albe to tell me who it was. A guy named Samson with an awful lot of bad under his belt. Kearen then told me that he would fight if he tried to come near me. I'm seeming to make lots of friends. He told that he'd considers me family. I felt touched and any worries of him harming Nissa melted away as he talked on about the things he would do for me. He knows so much stuff, I figured I can trust him. So I asked him if would look for my sister in the Isle's he argeed to send a Mr. Hyde to look for her. It could take awhile seeing Mr. Hyde had other duties to attend too. If I can find her and help her avoid the life I had. I feel my role as the big sister would be fullfilled. It would be nice to talk to her at the very least...

[Eshva]

June 28

I've just had the worst day of my life... or the most eventfull... I'm not sure how to put it!

I was doing missions in Striga when I heard Nissa come on the Comm. I wanted to get her that orb! So we met at the top of the mountain in striga... I don't know what it was called but it had this HUGE door in the tip of it. Anyways I showed Nissa the Orb and asked her if she knew what it was. She didn't. She then inquired who it was from.. All I needed to say was Drow and she knew who it was from. I talked to her about how nice he was to me. And she thought he might have had a change of heart. I don't know what their relationship was before... but it didn't look like Nissa wanted to talk about it. So she went to her dorms to look at the orb some more.. I wish I'd never given her it..

I met up with Glaical afterwards. I wanted to talk to some one about the scary information that Kearen and told her about the Samson... And everything else. It wasn't til shortly after we finished a few missions together that I her the Buzz on the Comm.. Nissa was in the hopstial... a Gas had posined her.... I literally droped... The orb was couldy.....It was full of posion!!! I hated myself right then... Cricket was right... I broke down in tears... Glaical had a hard time understanding me. Kearen used me..... earned my trust and used me! I fell for it completely.. Soon Rin was by my side holding me. We had to move cuz we were right in the middle of a train station... We jumped up on a building by the train station. Glaical cleared out the Thorns that were on the roof. I tried to tell Rin what had happend.. I guess I was a little more understandable.. But they got the jist of what had happened. Soon Palila showed up... She then informed us that Nissa use to be a slave for Kearen... And this was his way of trying to get her back... I was shocked! Slave!!! He'd told me she was an aqunatance.. Close friend... I beat myself up for that too.. Palilla ran off to beat some things in I guess I heard alot of noise from her end of the comm. Glaical went off to look for Kearen to find a cure in croatoa the last place I'd seen Kearen and Rin stayed with me.

I tried to think of ways I could try and Trick Kearen back.. Get him to give us the cure to make Nissa better. Rin Just asked me not to do anything alone.. I didn't know what Kearen was capalbe of nor did he.. Rin didn't want me to get hurt.. I promised him. We decided to go out for that milkshke date that We'd been trying to do for my Sophomore pin that Jaygo Gave me last week. Rin and I wandered the streets for a bit and decided to call it a night. He walked me to my dorm and was gone. However that didn't end my night.

I over heard Eric chatting about his new school uniform. He was gonna show it off in Pocket D. We danced for a bit. I started to her more chatt about Nissa and mildly ingored it.. until I heard a different yet familar voice in my head.....

Hi Eshva..Was all it said. It was Kearen.. but in my head?? I guess I replied as the next words that came to were.. By the tone of your voice I talke it Nissa found the little button on the orb.. I broke down.. again.. Eric and the Mastermind Villain who was making small chat about the Flyers looked at me oddly. Questions flew threw my mind. Kearen answered all of them just as I thought them. He thanked me... For being such a help.. he mocked me when I asked if he was was going to hurt me.. "Hurt you? Why would I hurt "Family" HAHAHAHA " I was flooded with guilt.. Next thing I know Eric is trying to get me out of Pocket D...

I guess as I was leaving Palilla was Talking to Kearen in the same fashion. And Agreed to a fight.. with terms.. If he Loses He gives us the cure and leaves forever... but if palilla lost.. she and Nissa would have to go with Kearen and be his slaves..

When I made it out.. I felt a little better.. But I looked behind me and there stood Kearen...In person..I felt sick... Eric Stood there and tryed to tell Kearen off. But he didn't move. He just looked at me threw his helmet with this wicked amussment.. And thanked me again.. I guess I must have zoned off again cuz Palilla was there Telling kearen off too. He just stood there smuggly. Palilla reminded him about their match and ran off. Kearen returned his gaze to me. Taunted me with the fact that he could be going home with two slaves instead of just one. That he would be going back with nissa and he had me to thank for it. He reached and touched my face like he's done on so many occasions. I jumped back. Eric punched him. Next I saw a girl dressed all in purple... I guessed she knew Pali cuz she started cussin up a storm at Kearen. I decided To leave... I should have gone to bed but the next words over the comm grabed my attention again.. " He has no intenntions of following his word!! He's Teleported get the hell out Pali" I guess the rules of the fight Changed Amy and Pali were going to fight him.

I bolted so fast to the arena in Glaxiy city that Eric lost track of me. I had to see this fight. There wasn't anyway I was going to let another student get caught up because of me.. There Any, Palilla, Eric and Johnny dangerous were waiting for Kearen to show up. He did. Helmet off and white hair exposed. More bannter was exchanged and then the fight was on. Me and Eric had a hard time figuring out how to view the event.. But he figured it out and it appeared on the screen. We both watched Cheering cheering for Amy and Palilla. << Yes I have pictures of this too ^^ >> Kearen spent a fair time runing. His weapon was a bow.. It didn't really surpise me. Palil Waved her mace arround and amy sent engery blasts flying everywere. In the end Amy and pali won. I was thankfull that it would be over now... Again.. I was wrong..

Kearen Came back out. Refussing to Give over the Cure. He pulled out the Vile. It was green in color like the gas... He slowly held the small vile at the end.. Something was fishy...Amy got an idea and motioned at Eric. He speed boosted her and she ran and snatched the vile.. It looked too easy.. amy ran to the school with it. Pali told Kearen to leave and she went to the dorms. Kearen teleported out. I sat in the arena for a bit with Eric. He chose to walk me to the dorms. It was time I got some sleep.. To my surpise... Kearen.. again.. Was there waiting for me. He smiled and waved as Eric encouraged me to get going. I did started to run I only stoped once to look back and he was still at the arena watching me.. Both me and Eric made it to the front of the school. Eric scouted the area for Kearen to make sure it was safe. I waited outside the school walls when I heard a Shhhhhhhh behind me. I froze.. I didn't need to guess who it was. I felt Fear take a grip on me as I yelled before I was completely forzen.. Eric came to my aid just to miss Kearen jump to a legde behind him. I was scared couldn't talk.. until I saw Kearen pulling back on his bow.. I yelled Erics name... and he moved just in time... Kearen jumped again to attempt another shot. I shouted at Eric. He Bolted to the school. I looked at Kearen. I felt the hate I haven't felt for anything but Hellions building up. He was attacking my friends now... Not cool. I told him he would never hurt my friends. The stament didn't bugg him though. "I'll just have to hurt you then." Kearen took a shot at me. I made it into the school just in time.

There I ran up to Eric and amy.... and suddenly I see from the conner of my eye I girl dressed in all pink. Scream out.. DEMON!!!! By now I was having a really really bad day... Kearens voice again rang threw my head. " Thank you again.. you really have been such a help" I was confuseed. " now I know were Nissa is.".. I lead him to the school!!!!! I was so pissed, hurt, ashamed and many other emotions building up it just hurt... alot. I'm I completey throwing my new home to the dogs!! So far all I've done is bring danger to my friends....I really hope this isn't a trend. Amy and Eric both saw my distress and went out to face Kearen again. The Girl in pink came up to me and appolized for calling me a demon. I love new students.. We both decided to head outside to check on Eric and Amy. Once outside the voice appeared again. Instructing me to tell Eric to move to the left a bit. I just screamed MOVE and everyone scattered. We could here Kearen voice Eric and Amy found him on the roof and pushed him down. Again We faced him. He mocked us with the idea that the cure he gave us was fake. Amy stood strong and claimed we would find away to help Nissa. As she said that he pulled out a Red vile.. Guess you don't need this then... he droped it. I didn't think I just dove for it. There was NO way I was gonna mess this up. If it had a chance of helping Nissa it was worth dying for. Amy looked at me. The girl in Pink shook her head at me Kearen was clearly amussed and commented on the fact that if we didn't need one. Why'd I dive for it. She picked me up. Amy whispered to me that I need to get the vile to the Doctors ASAP. I noded my head and ran. I'm not risking Nissa's life for nothing. I'm gonna fix everything too. After I finished handing over the red vile to the doctors Eric was there. Kearen had left.

Me and Eric got Chatting. Something was bugging him so piped up about my past in hopes of breaking the Ice. I chose to tell him the story of how I discovered my claws. I'd just goten to the Rape part when a male voice broke out. I don't remeber what he said exactly But he was dressed in a leather jacket, motercyle pants and was wearing shades.. and we both jumped up from the floor. He introduced himself as Adam. He was packing and had places to go. As Eric exchanged words with him about the him leaving the school I saw a girl walk in..She looked fimalar... but I couldn't place it.. We wished Adam good luck as he walked out the door. He said goodbye to Angel... the name rang a bell. I inquired about Pocket D and she had no clue what I was talking about.. She seemed lost.. and started asking questions about the school. I told her everything I knew like Kris makin the cheer squad, the dance and such.. She asked odd questions like when did the cheer squad start up. I thought it was on their second try outs... but Angel seemed like it was a new idea for the school! Everything I talked about seemed to be lost to her.. like she didn't remeber.. I could relate with her on stuff like Faster, Franky and Kali seemed to be a name she reconized to. I got a hunch... I asked her if Adam went by a different name. She nodded and agreed. He went by Dective.. I swore my jaw droped... Dective was missing... Does this make Angel... Sapphire?? If thats the case then it was her at Pocket D! She looked different... I burlted out words and probally made a compete fool of my self.. I listed off all the people that had talked about her and that she was missing for months! Obs, Kali, Kris!! She didn't reconize Obs name... I thought that was odd. I figured she would know her borther... Eric then made a referance to his real name.. Antiono. She discriped his appearance. I agreed, that was most defo Obs. I let out that he teased alot. She was a little shocked to hear that he was rather popular now. Eric had gotten her an ice pack.. I guess some one hit her... But then I wondered... what day did she think it was. I asked her.. She thought it was Feb 22!!! Holy crap!!! She's missing alot of time.. But either way I was very sure alot of the students would be very happy to see her back and safe, I offered her a bed in my quad if her's was taken... She seems like a nice girl I hope everything gets worked out for her and that she remebers.

After Angel went to bed Eric and I continued our conversation which I may write about tomorrow... cuz I am soooo sleepy... the sun is even coming up as we speak.. and I probally have a long day ahead of me...

[Eshva]

June 28

Today was mostly talking to people about the busy events that happened last night.. It’s been non stop. I met up with a girl named Tawney at Pocket D. I told her about most of what I could about the yesterday’s events. It hurts a little to still talk about it.

An interesting thing happened though when I started to talk about Angel and Adam. A strange girl came up to us and asked if we knew him. She’d over heard us talking about Adam. She introduced herself as Jayden, and Adam’s girlfriend. I was a little surprised to hear that because Sapph and Adam had just broken up the last night. I guess that’s why. If I see him I’m to relay that Jayden is looking for him. She seemed worried and scared.

Shortly after Rin came on the comm. I just wanted to curl up in his arms. So we met up. Again I told him what had happened after he went to the dorms. When I got to the part were Kearen had tried to kill Eric and myself by shooting us Rin was furious. I knew he wanted to go after Kearen. It showed as his eyes started to glow bright green. I didn’t want him to get hurt as much as Rin didn’t want to see me get hurt. We decided that we needed to get my mind off of the sistutaion, so we joined some people to do some patrolling. I guess Rin had a test he almost missed told me goodbye and ran off.

I decided to go to the hospital and visit Nissa. I hoped she would be well enough to have visitors. I got her flowers and Get well soon card. I could only think of one thing to write in it “Sorry.” It was to my surprise when I went in the room that Nissa was awake. I guess she didn’t recognize me right off the bat… but it took my breath away. She called out to Pali.. even got up and tried to walk… Nissa collapsed and fell to the floor. All I could was watch as the Doctor picked her up off the floor and put her back on the bed. After I had placed the flowers and the card down I took a seat beside her.. So much was going threw my mind, all the instruments beeped, Kearens voice rang threw out my head. I managed to say sorry… but the look the doctor gave me probally would have killed me, if looks had that power. I had gotten up to leave.. but Nissa called out to me. She said the words I needed to hear from her… “Kearen did this to me. Not you” Everyone since yesterday had told me that. None of it helped. Not until they came out of her mouth. Her eyes were so full of pain, looking at me when I turned to face her again. She pleaded with me to make it stop. So I told her what had happened last night.. The two possible cures even though one could be a poison as well. Nissa’s eyes had filled with hope. A hope I didn’t want to see leave. I rushed again to get out before she asked me to get them for her. I heard her plead behind me as I hurried to the lab to check on the progress on the testing of the two vials. In many ways I feel bad for leaving the way I did, but I know I could not have said no to those eyes…

I met up with Glacial to do some patrolling, but before we could get anything done I had to tell him what had happened. He cursed the Fir Blog for toasting his Comm other wise he would have come to help instead of looking around Croatoa for Kearen.

One of the newer students Crono came up with a interesting nick name for me.. Ibuki. He’s so smart but yet he can’t seem to remember names… In a way I’m happy with Ibuki other wise I would have been buki boo.. Which reminded Stasis of something…. very gross. We hung out and I showed him around. He asked me lots of questions about my powers. Crono. He in turn told me about the runes he grafts in to his body that help him perform tasks. He even gave me a piece of paper with great detail on how to make my own grating tools so I could make my own symbols. It was very interesting and very complex. I really wish I could remember the whole conversation. I bet it could make a great text book. Some how we got on the topic of my skin being so pale.. I told him I’d never tried to go tanning to see if it could be more normal in color. So we decided to try and have a day at the beach. It could be fun ^^

[Eshva]

July 4

I lost some pages in my journal!!! I'm sad about that.. oh well..

I get on to partol to bump in to a very very happy Glacial... I really didn't think I could see a guy that bubbley... As it turns out he got a kiss!!! From who he really didn't say. I'm sure he'll tell me when he is ready. I was very happy for him I had never seen him so happy ^^

Later the Comms went down for some dumb reason.... I totally missed why. It just wasn't working when I got off class. I later found out that some one had taping in to the school comm system! Something totaly weird had happen to Scout. He fell out of a helicopter or somthing crazy like that! I'm just happy Scouts okay ^^ He is fun ^^

Then after that it was Missing student time! Power Sink, dispeared shortly after helping scout out... Before his comm cut out he was talking funny... We was said and he used different volumes of talk... My gut screamed somethings wrong! Me and Glacial couldn't find him. The other person that went missing was Eric.. Glacial was suppose to meet with him and he never showed. I'm hoping that he comes back soon or that maybe he forgot... Thats what I hope anyways..

I took Glacial about for some missions to cheer him up. It sucked that he was so happy and then all this crap landed on him.. Oh well. Just sucks that I can't give him a hug...

[Eshva]

July 5

I actualy got to hang out with Mimi today ^^ She showed off her new out fits to me. Well new to me. She got a sweet leater jacket and it looks really good. I didn't notice how pretty she is when she doesn't have her glasses on and her hair down. She also showed me the dress she'd bought for the swadie dance Its stunning ^^ Hopefully she'll get to use it for prom! It was nice getting to know my roomie. We really hadn't talked much in the dorms.

Glacial is getting really worried about Eric... Still no sign of him anywhere. I promsied him I would keep an Eye out for him.. Its not like eric to be missing for so long.. I'm worried too.

Crono is getting worried that the school is going to hate him after a debate... on Hope. He doesn't believe in hope... and after the story he told me about the little town that was destoryed... because all they did was hope that they wouldn't do... I don't blame him.. Hope on its own is very useless... However I think that Hope and a will to do something with it is the strongest thing ever.. I might try and show crono that... Don't know how well it will work. Oh well. I can still try

[Eshva]

July 6

Its another one of those days.... Ya the ones were Everything falls apart...

It started of with a special request mission. It was knida funny.. It was a Pick up and drop off parcel I thought it was gonna be a standard mission.. and not a set up..

I walked into the place and it was completely empty. It seemed like a pretty high tech place... but why was it empty. My comm start to act up. Frist thought was not again. Moments later Eric appeared behind me... What he said took me off guard "Your sister sends a message for you" I looked at him and I almost didn't reconize him. He was in a suit with wires and electrical devices all over it. It almost looked like something the Freakshow would do to themselves.. The next thing that happened put me in to shock! He ATTACKED ME. Sent an electrical charge right at me It fried my comm. If I wasn't stuned from the charge the fact that once again my real name would escape his lips. Rose... He kept firing charges at me. After dodging them I realized I would have to fight my friend. I used attacks that didn't require close contact.. I didn't want to hurt him... Durring the fight he Told me my sister wants to help me, that I've been bad. I racked my mind.. the worse thing I'd done was Nissa... and that had no coraltion to the girl that claims to be my sister. I was confussed and hurt. Why was he blaming me for an action I don't even know I comitted! It was when he said that he was taking me to her unconscious that I knew something was far more wrong then it was already.. He continued his banter. The last words out of his mout were "she doesn't hospitalize people" It hit an emotional button....I closed my eyes and thought of Nissa.. I screamed at him I didn't do it!! Uncontrolled my Claws came out.. right in to the middle of his chest... I opened my eyes to him looking at me and slowly his eyes rolled into the back of his head... I appolgized right away!

It didn't take long for my Comm to come back on.. I heard Glacial yelling. I just told him to get a medical team I tried to explain what happen to Glacial.. He was just pissed.. He gave me that look that he gave when I told him about Kearen.. I think that was the coldest I've felt arround him. We found a two notes... and a picture... it was a picture of me.. From when I was much younger. My horns weren't there my skin look flushed and healthy. I didn't understand... How could he have gotten that.. There was also a note addressed to me... From my sister I guess she calls herself Mila. Psychwave was trying to help stop the bleeding from his chest as the medical team came to take eric away. They couldn't lift him.. That suit must have weighted alot it took Psychwave and Glacial to lift him up. After the Medical team left with Glacial and Psychwave. I just felt rage... sorrow... I caught myself Growling.... It scared me! I haven't growled since... well since my blood rage..... It scared me so much I droped the Comm just as I heard Crono over it "since when does Ibuki growl??"

I ran. I was so upset...I could feel the tears fall from my eyes. I headed right for the lake in Atlas park. I climbed up on to the leg and cryed. I thought everyone was gonna hate me espically Glacial... He'd gotten to be really good and close friends with Eric... I heard a shuffle and an ow, I looked down to see Crono rubbing his arm. I jumped down and started talking to him. It didn't take long for Mimi and Glacial to show up. The Questions were on. A debat about Mila being my sister.. Crono had even seen her and chatted with her! We disperesed and Me and Glacial went to check on Eric... And get me a new comm..

Just after I got my new comm Mimi introduced me to the other roomie of Quad 3. The student known as Moth or Yulia. She sounds really neat ^^ She's in bed at the moment but I can't wait to get to know her ^^ She looks pretty like mimi Short blond hair instead. I can't see much of her right now. It was a nice break talkin over the comm for a bit. I decided to go for partol and the last person on the planet that I wanted to see came back in to my life.

Kearen voice appeared into my head. Not only that he dug into pulling out all the information that had been on my mind. He laughed loudly when he came across the events that had just transpired he decided to thank me for killing the boy he wanted to. He also to a growing insterst in my supposed sister... taunting me with taking her under his wing, Going into erics mind and finding out all the infromation he could painfully as he could. I was torn inside again .. I know Kearen knew.. Evenutally he left my mind to go look for my sister.. I really really hope I find her first..

Later I heard Adams voice come on over the comm. To my surpise and utter shock Tolliver Tore him apart... They started bickering and fighting. I ingored it. One of the new students R. Came on and asked if I was okay. I told him a bit about what was bugging me... Eric was still fresh in my mind... Pu also appeared, I was very happy to see her. I'd was starting to wonder were she was.. Mind you Rins been gone.. for a few days.. I haven;t heard from him either.... Getting back to what happened.. Me and Pu compared our swimsuits and argeed on day at the beach. I really should have another one the last one was such fun ^^. In the process Adam Jumped down in front of us. He shocked the crap outta me! I usually don't jump that easily. Him and Pu exchanged some words. I guess he's always been nice to Pu dispite all the really rotten things I hear about him. Maybe he's just misunderstood too... Knida like Toll.. There is still a nice part of Toll there.. Just not many people see it. Either way all three of us got talkin and I confrimed the rummors he heard about Nissa... in the process Pu started acting knida weird floating side to side with a daydreamy look about her..... Next thing I know.. there's a Shivan behind us. Adam and I watched as she floated up to it and hugged it talked to it. Soon she lead it way... with out saying a thing to me or adam... We tired to follow but Pu and the Shivan ... just vanished! Poof! all gone! Wierd out we looked for her at the school with no luck. Adam and I started talking again and I just got started ranting about Eric... He stoped me half way, said his good bye and left to go do something.. What I'm not sure... Maybe he'll find Kearen before Kearen finds Mila... Its time for me to get some sleep finally.

[Rin]

To Esh,

Hey umm... its me. Sorry I've been MIA last few days, theres been some things that I've had to deal with on my own... back home. I promise I'll be back as soon as I can. Hope your takin care of GM! See you soon.

XoXo, Rin

[Eshva]

July 28

So... I FINALLY got my journal back... and so much as happened.

Doc Syl says its clean of all traces of the Rage power my sister covered it in. Glacial told me she was arrested and currently waits trail for the things she's done. I really was hoping she was turning arround.. The lunch we had with Glacial and Eric really did show to be promising.. I think there is still a chance she'll be able to make ammends..

On another note... Rin is gone.. After making a deal with the cicrle it clearly had gone sour... And I arrived to find him too late. I saved him from whatever second rital.. they had planed for his body.. ... Sometimes all I see is his body still twitching from the spell... and the words... I can't even write with out getting teary eyed..Maybe I'll write more about it later..

Everyone has been so supportive. Wishing me the best and checking up on me. I've tried really hard to put a cheery face for some new students I met Hawk, Barjnal and a timothy today. I even managed to help Barjnal learn to attack with out tearing up his oppention.. That made me feel better. I've been told I'm glowing and my eyes are red... I've been avoiding seeing Doc Syl.. I don't think I can go in there yet..

I've been told to hold a memorial for Rin.. I don't know what I'm going to do yet.. I sat in the palce with jason were Rin took me just after the dance. I put a piece of the CoT crystal that shattered when I saved his body there.. I think I will get a plaque made..

But right now I'm too tired to write. Crono cheered me up alot today He seems to do that. Its knida hard not to when he starts a tickel fight! Anyways I'll write more later..